Sunday, February 7, 2016

I'm Going to Have a Teenager!

In a few months (5 to be exact) I will have a teenager dwelling in our household.  
How did this happen???  
I remember like it was yesterday, my sweet baby boy singing "Twinkle, Twinkle", 
sipping on sippy cups and toddling his Pooh Bear around. 
 I think we've done a pretty good job, raising this boy of ours.  
He's kind, bright, athletic, compassionate and responsible.  
I do well with the young years.  
Babies, toddlers, preschoolers, primary years etc...  
I'm not so sure about the teenage years though. 
I'm scared. 
8 months pregnant with my first baby.
 This is unchartered territory and I'm terrified.  I've never done this before!  
The early years were easy.  
Read stories, play Lego, watch Treehouse, eat Cheerios... I could distract and prevent tantrums...
I could wipe away their tears and kiss "boo boos" better.  
Now, it's not so easy.  
There are hormones and pimples and independence and friends...  
I've always enjoyed having my children near me, hence my homeschooling them.  
I've never felt the need to be away from my children for long stretches at a time.  
It's just not who I am; I thrive when they are around.  
My baby at 2 weeks old.  Couldn't believe he was mine.
As my eldest is getting older, I can feel the shift to autonomy.  He doesn't want to listen to the same music as his siblings do.  He doesn't like the same TV shows they like.  He pulls away when his Mama wants to kiss or hold his hand in public...YES, I'm one of those moms!!!  There's an air of "coolness" about him.  His hair has to be done just right, his soccer boots have to be a certain brand name and he wants connectedness with peers.  
It's all normal and expected but oh so hard...for his Mama.  
5 years old.
I am savouring his cuddles, kisses and hugs...and willingness to talk to me in the quiet of the night when everyone is in bed.  
Just me and him.  
Him wanting to know about the world.  "Did you have a boyfriend in grade 7 Mom?" 
"When did you first kiss a boy?"  "How did you know you loved Daddy?"  
Lots of questions. 
 Lots of curiousness.  
It's fun but also scary at the same time.  
Do I answer with censorship or candidness?  
It's all so new. 
I'm lucky to have a deep, authentic relationship with my son.  
He feels comfortable asking me those uncomfortable questions.  
He wants to know EVERYTHING...and I mean EVERYTHING! 
I know one day when he is a grown man, I will look back on these days and wish I could go back.  
It's all so relative right?!  
I need to cherish these remaining years of him transitioning into the man he will ultimately be.  
My baby.  
My boy. 
 My son.
My 7th grader!
 I just love him so very much and am so amazed that I was chosen to be his Mama.  
We will charter these teenage years together...hand in hand...

whether he wants to hold it or not! LOL 


Monday, February 1, 2016

Happy February 1st!

Yay! February is here, which means January is over! Yippee! Closer and closer to spring!
These dreary days with rain pounding and grey clouds overcast can really damper my spirits. I sometimes think I was meant to live down south. But alas, Vancouver springtime and summer will remedy my winter blues. 
Our days have been ordinary but I like that. I like the routine and structure that the weekdays bring. Musical theatre, jazz, piano, soccer, art, swimming etc...they pull us in all directions but it's our normal and I feel drawn to it. 
I think at this time of year, homeschoolers often evaluate how their "school year" is going. Have we done enough? Should I do more? Should we drop this? Or start a new curriculum? Two of my kids are doing the FSA's (Foundations Skills Assessment) which is an assessment of a students' academic skills. I have until the 19th to administer the test to my 4th and 7th graders. 
We have a couple of field trips this
month: one to the VSO (Vancouver Symphony Orchestra) and the Nikkei National Museum & Cultural Centre (Japanese Canadian History and Culture). 
The spring will bring trips to the Greater Vancouver Zoo and Maplewood Farm. The field trip I'm most excited about is to SAINTS (Senior Animals in Need Today Society). It is a sanctuary for elderly and unwanted pets. My children and I have a soft spot for animals. We love all of them. Ultimately, I would like for us to volunteer at SAINTS once a month. 
Here are the websites for the above mentioned places:

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Chocolate Chip Cookies

He came home sad and upset.
Someone wounded my boy's heart. It was the typical bullying stuff. 
Calling names. Teasing etc... 
My boy's not used to it. He hasn't faced this kind of treatment before. 
So, it shook him at his core. 
It was a time for discussion and resolve. He was faced with the sad reality of cruelty and the meanness that sometimes engulfs our youth. 
After tears and hugs and reassurance, we made chocolate chip cookies together. 
He cracked the eggs and found the baking soda. He ate the cookie dough off the whisk. 
He was happy again. And safe. 
The tears of sadness had dried up and he was content to be with his mama in the kitchen baking. 
People often ask me why I homeschool and if I think I'm sheltering my kids too much. 
They wonder if they are socialized enough. 
They question if my kids have friends. 
My answer is yes. They are sheltered. They are socialized. And they have enough friends. 
Heartache will creep into our house just as it does yours, whether my kids are in school or not. 
Bullying will penetrate our walls as yours too. We can't keep the world at bay; try as we might, it can't happen. 
I teach my children fortitude and resilience, empathy and forgiveness. 
We cannot control the actions of others but we CAN control our reactions to them. 
My boy learned that life isn't always fair and sometimes our feelings get hurt, but he also was reminded that home is a refuge and the people here are full of love for him...and maybe some chocolate chip cookies on the side. ;)

Monday, July 13, 2015


I canNOT believe I haven't blogged since April...that is unbelievably brutal!
There are no excuses, except maybe missed opportunities. Or laziness. 
Life has been progressing at a steady pace and we've had some adventures along the way. 
Earlier this month we traveled to Canim Lake, BC. It was so nice to get away and vedge lakeside as the kiddies splashed and played in the lake water. We all got a chance to do some water sports including knee boarding and tubing.
It was a blast. 
My favourite part was coming together around the campfire at night to roast marshmallows, eats s'mores and laugh. Great memories. 
In a couple of days we're off on another escapade to Mill Bay, BC. We're going with my mom and grandmother; it's our yearly vacation together. 
I'm excited to see what the rest of the summer has in store for us. It's my favourite season by far!
Hope your summer is going well!

Friday, April 3, 2015

Good Friday

And Jesus said:  “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”

Wednesday, March 25, 2015


In this here part of the country, it's pretty wet and and lush but wet. 
Tis' springtime and the buds are starting to blossom and the grass is growing long. 
I like the spring but I LOVE the summer. The sun going down later and later each night makes me giddy. 
The kids are back at all their activities...piano, jazz, swimming, soccer, art...
It's a busy time in our lives. 
Days are being filled with park play, bike riding and street hockey. Oh joy!

Thursday, February 26, 2015

This boy.

This boy, was born on 
February 26th, 2008. 
The smallest of my three. He had jet black hair and the bluest eyes I had ever seen. 
He was perfection. 

This boy, was all over the place. Touching everything and getting into mischief.  He even plucked all the keys off the keyboard of our laptop.
Laughing now, crying then!

This boy, always had to keep up with big brother. Following him everywhere. Wherever big brother was, that's where he would be. 

This boy, too smart for his own good. Constantly asking questions. Curious about everything. Strong-willed and relentless. 

This boy, my most affectionate child. Full of kisses and hugs. Empathetic. Sensitive. Passionate. 

This boy, full of intensity. Boldness. Resiliency. 

This boy, unlike no other. Unique. Authentic. Mine. 

This boy, made in His image. Divine. Perfectly designed. 

This boy, has changed me more than I could have imagined. He is such a blessing in my life and I cannot imagine journeying life without him. 

My boy, Happy 7th Birthday!

All my love,