In a few months (5 to be exact) I will have a teenager dwelling in our household.
How did this happen???
I remember like it was yesterday, my sweet baby boy singing "Twinkle, Twinkle",
sipping on sippy cups and toddling his Pooh Bear around.
I think we've done a pretty good job, raising this boy of ours.
He's kind, bright, athletic, compassionate and responsible.
I do well with the young years.
Babies, toddlers, preschoolers, primary years etc...
I'm not so sure about the teenage years though.
|8 months pregnant with my first baby.|
This is unchartered territory and I'm terrified. I've never done this before!
The early years were easy.
Read stories, play Lego, watch Treehouse, eat Cheerios... I could distract and prevent tantrums...
I could wipe away their tears and kiss "boo boos" better.
Now, it's not so easy.
There are hormones and pimples and independence and friends...
I've always enjoyed having my children near me, hence my homeschooling them.
I've never felt the need to be away from my children for long stretches at a time.
It's just not who I am; I thrive when they are around.
|My baby at 2 weeks old. Couldn't believe he was mine.|
As my eldest is getting older, I can feel the shift to autonomy. He doesn't want to listen to the same music as his siblings do. He doesn't like the same TV shows they like. He pulls away when his Mama wants to kiss or hold his hand in public...YES, I'm one of those moms!!! There's an air of "coolness" about him. His hair has to be done just right, his soccer boots have to be a certain brand name and he wants connectedness with peers.
It's all normal and expected but oh so hard...for his Mama.
|5 years old.|
I am savouring his cuddles, kisses and hugs...and willingness to talk to me in the quiet of the night when everyone is in bed.
Just me and him.
Him wanting to know about the world. "Did you have a boyfriend in grade 7 Mom?"
"When did you first kiss a boy?" "How did you know you loved Daddy?"
Lots of questions.
Lots of curiousness.
It's fun but also scary at the same time.
Do I answer with censorship or candidness?
It's all so new.
I'm lucky to have a deep, authentic relationship with my son.
He feels comfortable asking me those uncomfortable questions.
He wants to know EVERYTHING...and I mean EVERYTHING!
I know one day when he is a grown man, I will look back on these days and wish I could go back.
It's all so relative right?!
I need to cherish these remaining years of him transitioning into the man he will ultimately be.
|My 7th grader!|
I just love him so very much and am so amazed that I was chosen to be his Mama.
We will charter these teenage years together...hand in hand...